Thursday, August 12, 2010

Dear Ana,

I completely, and epically failed today...
I slipped and had some of the cake that my sister bought...
Cake
Yogurt
Pizza [AHHHHH]
Add it all together and it equals... MASSIVE stomach ache...
Some call it random...
I call it 'body-tries-to-punish-Ayden-for-eating'
And I sooooo deserved it...

I'm sure you've all heard this in the back of your mind: "Today will be my day off... I'll be bad for today, and pick it back up again tomorrow."

I really hate that..

I was strong at work.. didn't touch one thing..
Why is it, that when I'm in the kitchen of a gourmet Italian restaurant, I can resist anything easy as a snap of the fingers?
Then I come home to where all the food consists of three types: Frozen, pantry [non-perishable], and food that is nutritious, and low calorie, I'm just too lazy to cook it. I can't resist a fuucckkiinngg binge.
And I dont even binge on the healthy stuff... I use shit like cake and friggin pizza that boyfriend brought home from work...
I think that today was definitely an incentive... I'll use how i feel now to keep myself from food tomorrow.

And a BIG thank you to Lola Rose for giving me the advice to fill up on water before I get the chance to even be hungry... Oh genius genius genius of a woman lol

What would I do without you girls???

<3 A

1 comment:

  1. No problem :) hope it helps. Try writing down a list of why you want to be thin and go back to read it every time you want to binge. It might help to talk you out of a binge and get you back on track?
    I've defo heard that in my mind too. I always crave pizza but you just have to tell yourself that today's weakness is not worth ruining your dream for. It is hard though I've given in a lot before so know exactly how you feel. We can do it though :)
    Keep us posted on how you're doing x

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