Juice fast day #3

So, yesterday, I broke down and ate some rice and beans with vegan cheese... Plus 2 bagels... And 2 pickle spears, but I'm not counting those, since they don't have any calories.

The day went great, until I ran out of premade juice. I have very little energy from not eating as much, so needless to say, I didn't have the energy to make myself more juice. Then, I became nauseous and grumpy, and I just didn't feel like I could resist eating any longer.
At least my binge was pretty healthy

Today, I'm going for a different approach. I'm keeping my stomach full with juice and water all day, because that's what made it so easy to keep it going that first day, plus my awesome dream.

I've had one glass of juice today, and about half of a bottle of water. not too sure about what I'm gonna do later though, since my fruit and veggie reserves are running low. Mom's about to go to the store, so hopefully she'll bring some more home.

Start Over. Juice Fast Day #2

So, my "day 1" of the juice fast didn't go as planned. I ended up eating pizza about 3/4 of the way through the day...
Yesterday, though, was a success. Nothing but juice and water all day. I even went to a restaurant with my friend and sister, and then later took them to get ice cream, and I didn't partake in either. I was so proud of myself.
Therefore, I'm counting yesterday as my officially official day #1.
Today, I had a job interview at 11:00 this morning. It went well, I think...
At the end of it, they told me and the other three girls being interviewed that they'd let us know by the end of the week...
I'm not quite sure whether that is a good or bad thing... or if it isn't a thing at all.
I'm drinking my first juice right now, while I write this post.
It's a combination of Strawberries, Pineapple, Carrots, and Celery, and it's pretty good =]

I was honestly surprised that yesterday went so well... Especially since I went to one of my favorite restaurants... But the truth is, that I wasn't really even hungry...
The ice cream was harder to turn down, because it was from my all time favorite ice cream place, SubZero. They actually freeze your ice cream in front of you with liquid Nitrogen. Pretty awesome. But I reminded myself what I was working for, and that it would only be 2 months before I can have solid food again... Granted, not right away, but it got me through the ice cream parlor.

I think that yesterday's strong motivation came from a dream I had during the previous night. In the dream, I woke up, and I was skinny. like perfect.
My collarbones stuck out, I could see my hip bones while I was standing.
And in the dream, I was SO happy, waking up was like a kick in the huevos... Needless to say, I was angry to have to wake up from it. But it gave me the strength to last through the day without bingeing on anything.

I haven't weighed myself yet... I think I'm going to wait for a while before I do, simply because I want my weight loss to look more substantial. I might weigh this weekend, but I might not.. I feel good about this fast, though...
I've even been letting my boyfriend touch my sides... Granted, only when I'm laying down, but still... It doesn't bother me as much because I feel like success is so close that my previous insecurities are already starting to melt away.

Love you all =] And thank you SO MUCH for all of the support upon my return!
XOXO

Juice Fast Day #1

Hey all :) So for the past three days, I've been preparing for a juice fast. Today is my official day one. I will be documenting the fast here, with my starting weight at the aforementioned 194 lbs. Have any of you ever done this fast before? This is my second attempt, but my first time with another faster in the house. My mom saw this documentary called "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" in which this man with a chronic illness decides to go on a sixty day juice fast. During the fast he loses his fat, and the disease also goes away. Another man, on the same documentary whose starting weight was 429 lbs, did the same sixty day juice fast, and lost 91 lbs in 57 days. That weight lost speed was my motivation to start the fast. At the end of which, I intend to KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF by whatever means necessary. I'm not limiting myself to sixty days, either. I will do this fast for as long as my body permits, and I'm going to schedule regular doctor's visits to make sure that my bodily functions are still in order, and that I am not dying lol. The all protein diet that I was on before, would have made me stick with it for nearly a year before I was even at my goal weight...A FUCKING YEAR!!!! And then after that first year, the diet continues by slowly adding other food groups into the diet for another few months. Therefore, I would have been on the damned diet until April of 2014... I'm sorry, but that is just too slow for me. Today has been relatively easy, though. My house is stocked with yummy fruits and vegetables that I can turn into juice, so I won't be wanting for anything. I'll continue to update, hopefully every day, but if not, then I will fill you in on the days that I post. Wish me luck my loves!!! Xoxo

I'm back... Hopefully for good.

Hey all. I know I haven't been on at all for quite a few months now, and here are the reasons.
--I started college, proving that the idea of the 'freshman fifteen' is definitely a true one...
--Because of the 'freshman fifteen' I shot past my previous highest weight and am now at a hideous
   194.
--Because of my weight gain, I've been too ashamed to get on here. I would assume that my constant
   failure to lose, and then small loss, and then another failure, would get tedious to read.

As for the 194 weight, however, I'm not sure that that's exactly the number.
About 3 days ago, I decided to try an ALL protein diet. I've been faithful to it, and I'm hoping to see changes in 4 days when I weigh myself.
The idea of this diet is to keep my body in a practically constant state of ketosis, an idea which I loved hearing, so now, I'm trying it.

I also applied for a new job, which I'm crossing my fingers for, because the company has an on site gym. My friend and I have been taking walks nearly every night for the past week or so, and the walks usually last between one and two hours.

I know how yo-yo dieting works. You begin, confident that you will stick with it and lose the weight. Then the middle rolls around, where you're going to family gatherings, weddings and dinners, which springs temptation into your face, and suddenly your walls begin to waver. Now, it is here, that one of two paths must be followed:

Ditch the diet, and risk gaining back all of that disgusting weight, so that you can have the doughnut that is taunting you from the buffet table.

OR.

Stick with it, and lose more weight, leaving the doughnut behind, and instead, go home feeling light and wonderful...

Unfortunately, the former is the one that usually wins with me... Instant gratification is, more often than not, too much temptation for me to resist.

Which is why I've become so very motivated...
I'm angry with myself for giving up... See, I never do that.
So this diet WILL stick. There is no punishment planned for if I fail, because failure is simply not an option. I can already feel myself slipping into my size 1 jeans and shopping for bathing suits.

This time, success is so damned close that I can smell it, and there is no way in hell that I'm going to let it get away from me.