I haven't weighed since Tuesday, which was when I posted last about my weight.
I haven't really eaten all that much today, just some breakfast thingy at school which I pegged at 800 calories for the whole thing.
My willpower has sucked lately. I need a kick in the ass, badly. I cannot be this size forever. I damn near cried this morning getting ready. I did my hair without a shirt on, and it was fucking tragic.
I hate how I look right now. I hate how I feel.
Nothing seems to work for me. I'm too weak to restrict, I'm too social to go to the gym instead of hanging out with boyfriend, I'm too forgetful to take a pill every day. So what does that leave me? A big, fat, nothing.
My calorie counting thing would work if I didn't get hungry before all the calories were gone.
Hope you are all doing better than I am.
xoxo
it's hard to fit in a weight loss regime around our lifestyles. i think if you sit down and really think about your timetable you will find time. you may have to make it (get up a little earlier, say goodbye to the bf a little earlier) but it's always there. good luck and stay strong x
ReplyDeleteI know you can do this! Just think of how much you want it, what you'll look like after you've lost all that weight, and how amazing you'll feel. It helps :) When you feel the need to eat something, how will you feel after you've eaten it? I get so angry after I eat something, then I wish I hadn't eaten it. Maybe if you put a post it somewhere you go everyday saying "Remember your pill" it'll be easier to remember? You've got the strength to do what you want! Just take it and don't wait for tomorrow. Do it now.
ReplyDeleteMuch love! <3
im sorry hun
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