Dear Ana,

I'm flushing myself out.
I've been drinking zero calorie powerade and water nonstop for the past few hours.
It's just that I can't stand being like this anymore.
The euphoria of having lost has passed, and I'm back in the same rut in which I was before.

I really hate this mind game I play with myself.
Like an epic match of ping-pong.
And the ball is made of led.
And every time I eat, a player misses a shot, and the ball slams into the walls of my skull.
Every time I starve, a point is won.
And the game goes on and on and on and on and on.
The winner?
Well, I would like to say that the skinny me beats the fat me to a total mush.
But I haven't gotten that far in the game yet.

Nothing will keep me from this goal.
I watched Isobel's VLOG and I've suddenly re-found my determination.
If you haven't watched it, you definitely should.

Isobel, love. You are absolutely as gorgeous as I imagined you would be =] Your beautiful voice perfectly reflects your flawless exterior!
I know you disagree, but I speak what I see.
[[[RHYME TIME]]]... apparently.

I ate more Cafe Rio today... It's an addiction... I know.
Sooo much sodium... I just know I'm retaining water, and I just hope to high heaven that it's water weight and nothing more.
That is why I'm chugging various calorie-free liquids lol.

Rant is over, lol. I'll be reading more =]
THINSPO