I'm still simply maintaining... I don't know what more I can do!
I'm eating less than 800 calories every day, [[Today, I'm at 710, and I'm not gonna eat anything else!]]
I've drained two 30 oz bottles of water and have had about 400 mgs of caffeine.
I feel jittery and weird and just plain MAD. It's like I'm going crazy! I need to lose weight! I want to be to my goal by this weekend!
[[Saturday night, to be exact... Boyfriend is sleeping over that night]]
I want to be noticeably smaller by then. I can't wait till I can fit into this one pair of size 5s that I have. They're red leopard print, and they're sooooo cute!
I have been in the 170s for too damn long... If I don't see a 160 number within the next 5 days, I'm going to fucking scream! I miss being on Ritalin. When I was on ritalin, I simply wasn't hungry. I don't want to buy it illegally, because that would be fucking expensive. More fucking expensive than the prescription itself.....
Maybe, since I'm turning eighteen in about a month and a half, I'll get my own doctor, and feign symptoms of ADD... it worked before... I never fucking thought I had ADD, but they were making me lose weight so fast that my mom made me stop taking them... I lost 20 pounds in like a month and a half... it was awesome...
FUCK... I'm sick of being fat... I haven't binged all day. I just had a little meal thing at lunch. I made sure that it had tons of protein so that I would stay full longer. Plus, protein makes you burn like 65% more calories than you would if you didn't have it.
I would just really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really like to be skinny again.
If skinny had a flavor... I'd almost be able to taste it right now... That's how badly I want it.
I love all your comments =] they're so sweet and supportive and just thank you sooo much...
Also. For those of you who post Thinspo's on your blogs, I thank you very very much. They give me the kick that I need when I'm feeling below motivated.
You girls are the best =]
if skinny was a flavour it would be the most awesome one out there!! forget mint choc chip!
ReplyDeletemaybe you need to take a couple of days to shock the metabolism and remind it that it has a job to do? maybe after the boyf comes you can up the calories for a few days then drop back down. xx
Good luck girl, I know you can do it <3
ReplyDeletejust stay stron ghun u can do this ujust have to stay strong
ReplyDeleteGood luck, you CAN do it! xxxx
ReplyDeleteI have been stuck in the 160's for so long feel the same freaking way, im going crazy right now ! I just wanna lose weight ! Lets fight darling :)
ReplyDelete