Dear Ana,

I'm fucking fat.
I wish there was some way to just eliminate my appetite forever.
I hurt my back at the gym the other day, so I've been hobbling around like igor all weekend.
If it's not done hurting by tomorrow morning, I think I'll just take it easy at the gym, like maybe just walk and do some biking. Then maybe I'll try some weights. Just arms and chest, though. I don't want to fuck up my back anymore than I already have. I just MUST burn some calories.
I've been eating like a pig all weekend, and that includes today.
This fucking sucks. It's so hard. I know I've done it before, but it seems like it's harder the second time around.
I'm seriously a food addict and I need to break this dumb addiction.

Yesterday, Boyfriend's sister was talking about this girl she works with, and they were doing that question game thing where if you had to give one thing up, but it would mean getting something else, would you do it?

The question was: Would you spend 30 days in jail if it meant that afterward, you would have the perfect body FOREVER?

Boyfriend's sister said that it wouldn't be worth it. I think it would be worth more than that.
Think about it. Give up 30 days and have your perfect, skinny body for the rest of your life.
Maybe I'm crazy, but that seems like the deal of a fucking lifetime.
What about you guys? would you spend 30 days in jail if it got you your perfect body for ever??

Think on it =]
xoxo