Coming off of antidepressants sucks ass.
I've been shaky as fuck all day, I've been getting annoyed and pissed off at the smallest things, and I've almost cried like fifty times.
I went to my friend's baby shower, and had fun there. Her niece kept stealing the toys for the baby and running off with them because she wanted them. It made me laugh.
I'm tired as hell. Probably because I took a muscle relaxer about an hour ago.
My sister is watching one of her stupid shows... Ghost Adventures... I want to punch these guys.
One of them is singing to a ghost... they never catch anything real, and they act like they know what they're doing, but the moment a weird sound occurs, or something gets knocked over, they run screaming like pussies.
I can't believe they make money off this.
But hey, if I could fake seeing ghosts and make enough money to wear designer clothes... I would do it.
And... At least it's not fucking Jersey Shore... Now those people, I hate. They're orange and roided out and they use text abbreviations to talk... Wow...
Anyhoo, back to the main topic lol.
I have had like two brownies, and a reeeaaally small chicken salad sandwich... I put that in as 200 for each brownie, and 150 for the mini sandwich.
With the calories I've burned, that puts me at 350, not too bad... But I would rather have gone without. But, baby shower refreshments call to me.
I'm cold. >=[
Well, lovelies. Sorry for the boring post, I'm probably going to fall asleep now lol...
Stay Strong
Revel in the Emptiness =]
if it was 200 for each brownie that would make your total 550 :/ sorry had to say it xx
ReplyDeleteThanks hun for your comment. I know what you mean. Love shouldn't be connected to food like it is, it just sets us up for feeling like we've failed, when all we want to be is adored.
ReplyDeleteIt's so stressful. I'm hoping for flowers and a DVD boxset from mine (hence the anxiety in the last post - the Kiss wasn't from him, and I'm not sure I even want to be with him anymore, but that's for another post). I think a big thing is that when you see those chocolates or cupcakes, your mind tricks you into thinking that if you don't eat them then you won't ever see food like that again, that you will be missing out. But you forget that you won't be missing out on that failure feeling either, if you eat them, and the gratification only lasts for, if you're lucky, a couple of hours.
Good luck, you don't need that extra food - you're surviving and doing well, and it probably won't satisfy you. Instead, it will spike your sugar levels, lead to cravings and maybe a binge. So just disengage your emotions from the food, even for one day. Find love in other places. Pampering yourself, going to see a show or a gallery, playing with pets or young children, flowers, music, dancing, shopping.
xx
When I got off anti-depressants the unstable times only lasted for a week or two, I hope it won't take you any longer than that!!
ReplyDeleteTake care
i hate the jersey shore as well
ReplyDeleteLights is the one that you said sounded like a chipmunk when I put her music on in my car
ReplyDelete^^^^ She can have a nice body and still sound like a small rodent... JSYK lol
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