The Following 20... Plus Ten

1) I'm unable to successfully cross my ankles. My knees always separate and I end up looking dumb
2) Seeing people I know at the gym
3) Meeting up with family whom I haven't seen since I was thinner
4) Watching my friends stay the same as I balloon outward like a sumo wrestler
5) Looking at my legs next to Boyfriend's... Needless to say, mine are bigger.
6) I don't want to bounce with every tiny movement as I do now
7) I get overheated waaayyy too easily.
8) I want to be able to dress like a skank and still look fabulous
9) I want a flat stomach
10) I want to be able to see my ribs without sucking in or laying down
11) I want clavicles, DAMMIT
12) Everything looks better on a skinny girl
13) I hate pretending to hate dressing up on Halloween simply because I'm too fat for all costumes
14) No stamina. I fall asleep every time I lay down. No exceptions
15) I want to be able to say "When I was fat..."
16) I hate having to say "When I get skinny..."
17) I'm embarrassed to let my boyfriend tickle me for fear he'll feel my flab
18) I want to be able to sit on his lap without putting his legs to sleep
19) I want to be light as a feather
20) I want to hear people tell me "You've lost so much weight!"
21) I miss looking good in pictures
22) Tattoos do NOT look good on fat girls
23) I had SO much energy when I was skinny. It's all gone now...
24) I want my self esteem back!
25) I want to be the thinspo for once
26) I want him to be proud to have me
27) I would absolutely love to be the skinniest girl in my group of friends!
28) I don't want to start college looking like a beached whale
29) Lingerie is no fun to look at when it's stretched over layers of fat
30) I want to be small enough to be a Rave Girl next Halloween!

Last year I was supposed to dress up as a Rave Girl... Yeah, it didn't exactly pan out the way I would have liked. And so, that is this Halloween's goal, Be Rave Girl Ready!
...Hmmm. I like that lol. I think it'll be my new saying.

Have a fabulous evening, girls!
Let's be RGR together!