Dear Ana,

So, I lost my job...
My boss was going to put me on probation because I'm not experienced enough.
I would only have been allowed to see one patient. Period.
And my pay would have been lowered to minimum wage.
That wouldn't even have been 50 bucks a week.
So I quit.

I need more hours than 5 per week. Obviously.

The conditions of my probation were that I seek 240 hours of additional experience elsewhere.
It's almost impossible to get into ANYWHERE in my field without 2 years of prior experience.
I'm kind of pissed off about the whole situation.

I asked baby sister, and she's back in the game!
We're going to help each other stay strong.
I know this didn't work out so well last time. But this time around I'm determined to succeed.
I can't do this fat thing anymore... none of my old clothes fit. Big surprise. And all of the clothes that do fit have been worn so many times that they have holes in every place imaginable.
I bought some new shirts because skinny girls look good in everything, even if it's WAY too big.
I can't buy pants, however, until I'll fit into my old clothes.
I want to be a size 5 again. badly.
I looked good in big shirts when I was skinny, but big pants made me look like I had no ass.

I must admit. After seeing Posie's pictures, I have become a whole new breed of determined.
I know Posie doesn't think so, but she is absolutely the perfect Thinspo.
Oh, how I've missed reading your blogs. I commented on a bunch of them this morning when I got up... Actually, it was like 1 PM. So sue me. Since losing my job, I've cherished my new found freedom to sleep in late.
I need to go shower before Boyfriend gets off work, lol, so Quick Thinspo!