Dear Ana,

My fast went well until about 3:00 pm today. so that gives me an 18 hour fast.
Better than nothing...

My sister noticed that I hadn't eaten today, so she promptly alerted mother, and they went on this tirade about how I would end up back in the hospital, and I'd be fed from a tube.

So I had eggs and toast earlier [420 cals]

Then they checked in on me and had me eat spinach and pasta ~ spelt pasta, so it's much lower cal than white. But I'll wager that the pasta puts me at [400 cals]

I'm not counting the spinach since it's a vegetable, and it was steamed, ergo, it's like nothing but water.

Tomorrow, I have school, though. So I should be able to get away with lying about having eaten at school.

Aaaannnd, since I'm 18 now, I can legally buy laxatives and ipecac. So that cuts a couple corners for me =].

I'm thinking of creating a symbol that will represent Ana, and act as a reminder for whenever I'm feeling weak or vulnerable, and I can scribble it on any papers or anything like that and remind myself to stay strong =]

Love you, ladies =] and Keep up the good work!