Today went okay.
Total Intake:
1 1/2 cup pineapple ~90?~
1 gum drop ~10?~
Corn-on-the-Cob ~120?~
Bagel ~330~
Bowl of Vegan soup ~150?~
2 [ >.< ] Fiber One bars ~280~
Total Cals: 980
See that? Just okay. I am super surprised and proud that I stayed below 1,000. Major accomplishment for whenever I allow myself to eat unchecked.
Tomorrow morning I'm going to go to the gym before school. I am going to get back into the routine of running or biking every day, and burning AT LEAST 400 calories per time at the gym. I have completely let my whole exercise routine go down the drain, and I want to get it back out.
I want to be like the girls at my school who wear sexy skirts and shorts and have nothing to worry about. I want to be able to see through the space between my thighs. I want to be able to confidently jump on my boyfriend's back without having to worry about giving him a deviated spinal disc.
I want to be able to eat without looking like a fat ass at Christmas.
Skinny girls don't look fat when they eat... But somehow, seeing a fat person eat is nauseating.
I will be skinny again. I promise myself. I promise you.
It's taking a major toll on my mental health having to look at this disgusting, jiggly, flabby body every day.
How am I supposed to imagine myself thin if I can't see myself any other way?
Oooo I can't wait to see my bones =] beautiful, sharp bones.
You are all my motivation!
For your comments on my last post, I would like to thank:
Lilah Lee
Amy
BonesArePure
BellaAna
You guys made me smile with your support and agreement on the fact that Cinnamon Rolls are the devil. I have no Idea how I would stay sane without you!
Stay Strong Ladies!
love you daring :)
ReplyDeletei so agree with you about how fat people look gross when they eat. skinny people make eating ANYTHING look glamorous.
and also the piggy-back thing i so true. whenever friends (girls or guys) offer me a piggy back or to sit on their laps i always decline because i don't want them to feel how heavy i am.
but that will all change - hopefully soon!
stay strong xxx
i know what you mean, i feel super self conscious eating in front of skinny/thin girls -__- i only take bite when they're not looking. ive also been lacking in my exercise routine ug. but getting back on track tomorrow since its the begining of a new week! :D
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ReplyDeleteglad u had a good day great job stayin under 1000 cals hun thas great
and u will ose the weight and b skinny
god ihate watching all ppl eat but ur right fat ppl eating is just gross
stay strong hun
hey love your blog. and i know i hate when people watch me eat especially super thin girls but some day we will be one of them.
ReplyDeletefood in general is just disgusting sometimes?
x Lyndee