Wednesday, June 8, 2011

I Hate This Game...

I ate everything today.
My antidepressants don't work anymore.
I want to cry over everything.
My sister is abandoning me for her stoner friends.
[if you read this, sister. Don't talk to me about it. In person, or over this blog. I'm just venting]
I don't deserve my perfect boyfriend.
I can't do anything right.
I know I sound like a fucking broken record, but this is the first time I've felt legitimately like crying in over a year.

Like I said, I hate this game...

4 comments:

  1. Maybe you could talk to your doc about changing your antidepressants?

    Sorry about your sis. I guess that just happens sometimes. But in the end, you're still sisters--no friends could ever replace you. <3

    OF COURSE YOU DESERVE A PERFECT BOYFRIEND.

    I feel like I can't do anything right either. A friend once pointed out to me that those us who feel that way tend to try really hard to do EVERYTHING right, which is entirely impossible, and thus makes us feel like failures who can't do anything right at all. So remember--no one can do everything right. And I have a feeling that your version of "Right" is probably a lot higher than the normal standard. ;)

    I hope you feel better. You don't give yourself enough credit. You're fabulous. xoxoxox

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  2. Blame the bad antidepressants don't blame yourself :(
    I agree w Mich I bet your idea of "Right" is a hell of a lot higher than most people's.
    Hope you feel better soon.
    Checked my blog lately? I'm starting to follow Mich and drawing cartoons and the latest ones are getting a few laughs.
    Her cartoons always make me smile. No matter what. So I read her cartoon posts when I'm sad. Then I tried to make her laugh too!
    Maybe make you feel less sad for a few minutes?
    <3

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  3. u shoudl prob talk to ur doc about them not working nemore get a higher dose or a different brand
    and u deserve happiness hun a perfect perfect and everything i know u dont feel it but u really are a good person an du desrve happiness

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  4. aww im sorry to hear your feeling this way sweetie!
    i hope things start to look up soon

    about your antidepressants, im guessing that they are SRRI'S which is meant to increase your seritonin levels thus relieving you from the positive effects of depression (positive means the ones you can see/ notice, not good) maybe you need counseling as your biochem is fine.....i do psychology, so its my guess...but im prob just bullshitting :/

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