Dear Ana,

So I've hit a glitch in my diet...
Tomorrow is boyfriend's sister's birthday, and we're having breakfast at her house, then lunch or dinner at olive garden, and then cake at their dad's house...
And, they're a family that's big on 'family meals' so if I don't eat, I'm being rude...
I was thinking of starting officially on Monday.
Day 1 is a fast, to kind of clean out everything before the diet officially starts.
Day 2 is 200 calories, which I can do easily
Day 3 I haven't figured out yet, but I'm planning the whole diet up to 60 days... Which is about when my graduation is lol.
I WILL BE SKINNY BY THEN
I have to be.
There will be all kinds of friends and relatives there that I haven't seen in a while [since I was skinnier] and I would hate to see them for the first time in forever as a fat cow.
Baby sister is still doing awesome on her ABC, she's lost like 20 pounds in 2 weeks.
It's insane.
And I'm insanely jealous.
I think I may go to the gym later on tonight just to be on the safe side about eating tomorrow. If I get far enough into the negatives today, It'll give me more leeway with what to eat tomorrow.
Now, some Thinspo

Dear Ana,

Update: Since I unreached my goal and actually got back up to 175 during the week, I'm counting my being back down to 173.4 as a new goal met.
Therefore, I can call it an accomplishment lol

Dear Ana,

So, it turns out that we're going to try keeping our gym membership for a few more months. So that makes me happy.
My best friend just got a membership where we go, so now I'll have someone to go with.
I still haven't eaten, and I'm having cravings like mad, so it's a miracle that baby sister just got home.
We're gonna help each other fast today.
I'm excited.
I also invented my own version of the ABC diet. It's something that will be easier for me to follow, and I was thinking of making it last longer, like maybe... until my graduation lol
It's snowing here =] Snow is a rare luxury in Utah, so I'm very happy about it.
I don't really have anything else to say so I'll leave you with more
Thinspo

Dear Ana,

I'm afraid to weigh...
I've been naughty... well, I was naughty yesterday.
I haven't eaten yet today... I know I sound like a broken record, but I really want to keep it that way.
Again, I know I've said this before, but if I allow myself to eat anything, I end up eating everything.
I managed to get my hands on some pills containing Ephedra. It's supposed to be like super at aiding in weight loss. Plus it has extracts from the Hoodia cactus in it, which is apparently a strong appetite suppressant.
So far, it has worked like a miracle. Only problem is that I get really hyper and jittery whenever I take more than one at a time. Which I probably should stop doing lol.
If any of you are willing to put up with me, I'm afraid today is going to turn into one of my multiple posts to keep me strong days.
Hope you don't mind =]
Thinspo

The Olsen Twins are so beautiful.. They've been like my idols since I was like 5 years old watching their slumber party and mystery videos.
They are my inspiration =]
Someday, I hope to be as successful and beautiful as they are

Dear Ana,

I caved and ate about 2/3 of a salad today... I was supposed to be fasting... But I bombed it in the first fucking 24 hours.
Like I said yesterday, I need a babysitter.
I'm tired as fuck and, as usual when I eat too much, I'm gulping down ounce after ounce of water...
Bladder don't fail me now.
It's Wednesday, and if I don't reach 170 by Friday, I'm seriously going to cry.
That's 3 pounds, in 3 days.
I really need to crack down.
I'm getting baby sister to try yelling at me again, so if she see's me going for ANY food, no matter what it is. I don't care how mean she has to be, if it fucking kills me, I WILL get control. I can use all the help you guys can give.
Uplifting comments anyone? lol
I'm keeping on my toes today... I will not go through another summer wearing long sleeved shirts
Thinspo

Dear Ana,

It appears I've lost a follower =[ sad day.
My family has to give up our gym memberships because of how expensive it is every month for something we don't do faithfully. It's something we can live without. Plus we have a treadmill and a total gym at home, so I guess we still have some stuff to do, just not as much as they do at the gym.
I've maintained at 173.6 for the whole weekend and now I'm impatient to lose more.
I want to be at 170 by this Friday. If I can skip it and go straight for the 160s that would be great, but I'll take what I can get.

I just spent about five minutes straight jumping on my trampoline in my back yard because I was so desperate for physical activity that I went out in 30 degree weather just to jump up and down.

I'm so sick of being fat it's ridiculous.
Baby sister has been on the ABC diet for a couple weeks now and she's doing GREAT.
I'm so fucking jealous it makes me sick.
She's lost like almost 20 pounds!
I wish I had her willpower, but every time she tries to help me, I get mad at her and bitch until she backs off.
I want enough money to hire someone to lock me in a room for 50 days and only bring me portions in line with the ABC diet, and not let me out until those 50 days were over.
Thinspo... Because I need it badly

Let's hope tomorrow goes better =/

Dear Ana,

I haven't been very good today...
This morning, after the weekly sleepover with boyfriend, we got up and made french toast.
I had 4 slices [400]
1 serving of syrup [220]
1 serving of vegan butter [90]
This was all within the first hours of my day.
Then I had a 400 calorie bowl of soup
Then a mixed bowl of super fiber-y cereal
Go lean [140]
Ezekiel 4:9 [360]
Soy milk [80]
So, naturally, I'm now chugging water at an alarming rate in an attempt to flush myself out.
This worked the last time I tried it, so I figured there was no harm in doing it again.
Water is my best-est friend right now... And so far I think it will have to be for quite a while longer lol.
I wanna be SKINNY SO FUCKING BAD
So let's make it happen, shall we?

Celebrity Thinspo